I kid you not. The year was 1954; I was three years old. My parents had followed some impossible-to-understand dream of moving to the middle of the damn desert and building their very own cinderblock house. So there we were on the distant outskirts of Las Vegas, a little ways off the Tonopah Highway, on our small slice of vast nothingness.
While our new house was under construction, we moved to our temporary quarters, the Atomic Motel. The one feature that distinguished our little home from any and every other cheesy motel in the state of Nevada was its absolutely splendid sign, which I never tired of watching. Approximately 20-30 feet tall, it was a giant neon mushroom cloud. In the style of the day, it started lighting up from the bottom, until the entire mushroom was a vivid and pulsating red — then went black, and then it started the whole lighting-up process over again. Totally mesmerizing.
Hey, that’s me on the cinderblocks!
But, lucky little girl that I was, I didn’t have to limit myself to neon mushroom clouds, oh, no. By 1955, our house was (barely) ready for habitation, and I had the real thing right outside my front door. You see, from January of 1951 through October of 1958, the United States tested 119 nuclear bombs above ground at the Nevada Test Site, at a rate of about one per month. Now, the Nevada Test Site, for those of you who haven’t brushed up on your godforsaken desert geography, is about 70 miles from downtown Las Vegas (and about 60 miles from the wasteland where I grew up).
The blasts were always announced ahead of time but, like NASA launches, were subject to delay depending on weather conditions (we now know that they were waiting for the prevailing winds to blow away from Las Vegas and towards St. George, Utah, but, hey, I digress). Every day, my father had to drive past the local AEC headquarters on his way to and from work, and he quickly deciphered the code they used. There were two lights atop the AEC building, a blue one if the blast was on schedule and a red one if it had been delayed.
So in our household, a blue light meant only one thing: “Set the alarm – we’re getting up early to watch the fireworks!” You see, the members of my family were atomic bomb connoisseurs; we were especially partial to the early morning blasts because they were the really cool ones.
So how to describe it. The actual blast was always in the last moments of darkness, just as dawn was breaking. Now, you know how, in an electrical storm, the lightning flashes will momentarily light up the entire landscape with that really eerie white light? Well, an atomic bomb also lights up the landscape, just as if it were midday, but for a considerably longer period of time and with a far different color palette. First came a flash on the horizon, and then, for ten seconds or so as the fireball rose, the entire desert floor and surrounding hills would be bathed in a rosy-orange glow that was simply stunningly beautiful. A short time later, you would feel the earth trembling, and then finally, almost as an afterthought, “BOOM!”
Then, once the big show was over, it was time to go back inside. My dad would shower and shave for work, while my mom started cooking breakfast. Since there was nothing much for me to do, I always hung around outside for my favorite part: watching the mushroom cloud. As time passed, the sky would get lighter and lighter, and the cloud would get taller and taller (some of them went up as high as 20 miles). Finally, by the time it was fully light outside, you could see the different air currents start to carry the cloud away, each current at its own speed and in its own direction. The entire mushroom would start to pull apart and drift off into pieces. And then — “Time for breakfast!”
The wafting mushroom (in perspective).
Damn! I think I may have given away my age!
you’ve also revealed your youth.
An eloquent scrapbook of absurd security.
What a story! And what writing!
And boy am I envious since I lived about 40 miles from Hanford, so now I glow in the dark, but I never ever got to see a mushroom cloud. Dammit!
Thank you, Susan.
You know, Las Vegas, back in those days, was kind of a two-company town: casinos and the nuclear test site. The strange demographics of my kindergarten/1st grade class probably broke down to about 25% of the kids who had parents who were card dealers, lounge singers, showgirls and another 25% who had parents (a father, actually) who were nuclear physicists.
So our show-and-tell days almost always had some kid from the nuclear physicist component who would bring in a Geiger counter — always a popular choice. Point it at any inanimate object in the classroom, and it would bip……bip……bip. Point it at any kid, and b-b-b-b-b-b-b-b-b-bip. But none of us ever actually glowed in the dark, although that might have been pretty cool, too!
OOOOoooo, Babaloo!!! What a great diary! Ah for that simple, blissfully ignorant time. While you sat on the cinderblocks, my mother was feeding me in my highchair and my biggest worry was not getting my diaper changed on time.
One question… when the lights get turned down low and you think back to that mushroom cloud being tattered by the wind… do your eyes glow in the dark? 😉
Well, I have changed a little bit since then, you know.
I’m shuddering.
Looking at your little cutie-pie photo makes me wonder what other horrible things are we being complacent about nowadays?
Although, we are pretty careful about peanut allergies here in the modern world.
Thanks for a great diary – I’m collecting BT childhood stories.
Well they were testing some kind of pesticides on families in Florida I believe it was. (the subject of a front page story here) The testing stopped recently.
Great diary though. Babaloo, do you still live near there?
Oh, God, no. My parents came to their senses in 1962 and moved to Minneapolis, then Denver, then San Francisco, where I’ve been ever since. I went back to Las Vegas once in the mid-’70s and it was just as wretched as I remembered.
hey Babaloo will you be at the march Saturday? Bootribbers will try to meet up in Dolores Park.
I was actually thinking about attending a march and rally in Walnut Creek — but SF sounds fine, too. Sure! What’s the strategy for meeting up?
Well there’s an SF Kossack gathering at Gordon Biersch after the march. But some Bootribbers are going to try to meet at Dolores Park at the beginning. I have to relinquish the computer to my daughter to do her homework now but I’ll try to post something in the Cafe tomorrow.
…and also really depraved indifference in Latin America, largely in the name of the War on Drugs(tm). For an example, I did a two part post awhile back on the proposed use of mycoherbicides — a killer fungus the drug warriors have been dying to try out for awhile.
The international community and environmentalist have come out against it and defeated it before, saying it would be biological warfare and an environmental nightmare, but some of our congresspeople keep pushing it anyway. If you’re interested, the post is here and it has some links to other resources.
Great diary! Reminds me of the movie, The Atomic Cafe — have you seen it? For those who haven’t, it’s not really a documentary, but a stunning collection of propaganda (mostly government, iirc). And it worked, too — the atomic craze swept the nation.
There was also a movie, Nightbreaker, about the nuclear testing in Nevada. I remember it as being quite wrenching, but I haven’t seen it since it came out in 1989.
You really brought back those memories with your diary and I feared for you. What a little cutie you were, too. I hope that you and your family are well. Thanks for sharing your story.
When I hear people discussing nuclear power as a reasonable alternative, I have to think they don’t really understand the magnitude of the risks or they wouldn’t speak so lightly of creating waste that can never be properly disposed.
Thanks for your concern. My family has been remarkably healthy. There are charts that show the path of the fallout for each bomb (sorry, I don’t have a link), and more often than not, it traveled through Utah, New Mexico, and Texas before taking a sharp swing up toward the northeast.
There was also a wonderful movie called “Desert Bloom” with Jon Voight that came out in the ’80s.
I remember that one. Remember the international incident with New Zealand refusing our ship(s)? It was all such a big deal in the 80s, it makes me wonder about our collective memory or learning curve.
When all that happened, it seemed to me “society” had learned its lesson and come to some sort of basic agreement. Then, a mere decade or so later, we’re having a public “conversation” about nuclear power as though none of that ever happened.
I felt the same way about candidate Bush in 2000 — when I heard him on about Iraq, Star Wars, and Reagonomics (even if he used a few different names for these things) I thought — “oh, that’ll never fly. We rejected all that years ago after they were proven to be failed policies.” I couldn’t believe it was being seriously discussed again.
Until then, I hadn’t realized both the importance of the media in explaining things and bringing historical context, nor the extent to which it had been corrupted.
Anyway, glad to read that you guys moved and were all okay.
…which includes interviews with some old friends of mine.
There was, by the way, in Nucla, Colorado, an Atomic Drive-in Theatre operating until the mid-1970s.
Those atomic tests were also broadcast on early-morning TV shows. Various news people reported on the explosions “live” from not very far away–I think they were in trenches or otherwise in the open.
I had an uncle who did that. He died of cancer 30 years ago. No history of it in the family.
I am so very sorry to hear about your uncle.
Yes, the media was brought in by the busload. I’ve been trying to locate a photo that I had seen of row upon row of them sitting on folding chairs with sunglasses on, watching the blast, but have been unable to locate it so far. There were also hundreds and hundreds of soldiers who were even closer, and apparently the health repercussions among them have been enormous.
Thank you for the kind words. No sadness now, as it was all a very long time ago. The connection between open-air atomic tests and later illnesses has never been acknowledged. I know there have been a number of studies done tracking the medical histories of area residents and the soldiers who were there.
Several years ago I happened to mention this to a brother who’s several years younger than I and hadn’t remembered this particular series of events. He was vastly relieved, because having a fairly close relative die of prostate cancer at a relatively young age made the family males understandably nervous. Knowing this bit of history put it in a very different perspective.
down memory lane. I’m glad you were upwind from most of the tests.
In some ways what I have been reading recently about the Preemptive nuclear strike strategy is taking me back to those scary days of the 50’s and 60’s when only the grace of God and a doctrine called M.A.D. kept most of us in one piece.
wow-that was an amazing diary— thanks for it!
reminds me of the documentary–‘Atomic Cafe’.
Geez. Are you writing a book on this? You definitely should! (You already have the illustrations….)