This is gonna be long, so bear with me….or don’t ;o)
I woke up this morning with the anticipation of returning home to my family after being in Washington for what I’ve heard are the largest anti-war demonstrations in 35 years. As I stood in my Mother in law’s kitchen making coffee I realized that the sun was shining outside for the first time in three days. Normally I wouldn’t think much of this, though I do love a bright crisp morning with brilliant sunshine. But for three days the clouds hung low over Washington and this was fitting because the occasion was a somber one, at least for me, and the clouds mirrored my mood. Although I witnessed many uplifting moments along the way, I couldn’t shake the feelings of anger and sadness.
The day before I left to go to Washington I went to the hardware store to buy an American Flag, capitol A, capitol F. I wanted the biggest one they had because I wanted everyone to see that it was there, with us where it belongs. I’m a goddamned American. On Veterans Day you will find that flag flying in front of my house. It’s there on Memorial Day and it’s there on the Fourth Of July. You see I’m getting pretty fed up with make believe patriots telling me that that flag belongs to them. I’m getting fucking sick and tired of sleazy oil traders and war criminals telling me and my friends that we’re traitors for questioning this war. They need to read a little history I think. This country, my country, for all it’s faults and brutal past, was born of the blood of dissenters and insurgents. Were it not for their determination to confront their oppressors and demand their freedom, and most importantly, their desire to struggle on to the rightful conclusion, there would be no you and there would be no me.
I arrived in town on the morning of the march. The city felt alive to me. I know that cities feel this way but it was something more. What impressed me first was how many young people there were. I’ve been worried lately that the youth of this country are not getting involved, but that fear has been laid to rest now as I watched so many of them streaming into the city on the metro and down the sidewalks toward the White House. I remember feeling proud of them, like a parent feels proud when your child surprises you and does something good. All around as I walked toward the hotel for the meetup with the Bootribbers and the Kossacks, there were little and not so little groups of people gathering and talking sort of softly it seemed. They were planning and setting rendevous points. It was encouraging. I was having some trouble finding the hotel so I stopped to call CabinGirl to get directions. As I’m dialing her number, a group of people asked me if I knew where the Holiday Inn was. The same one I was looking for. I said hang on I’m checking it out right now. That was cool :o) They were Kossacks from Colorado and this was the second time I was impressed. When I got to the hotel I went inside and immediatly recognized Steven D and Damnit Janet from the pictures that were posted from the Brewery meetup the night before. In hindsight, seeing the results of Tracy’s discovery of Booman on her floor, I’m certain it was best that I missed it because it would have been inevitable that she would have found two strange, how did Booman put it, ah…non-responsive men on her floor :o) I know Tracy can handle a lot, but I’m not sure she could have handled that! Let me just say that we’re lucky to have such a good natured dude running this blog. So I decide to go up and introduce myself to Steven and Janet. Steven is close to how I pictured him. I don’t quite know how to describe him other than my first impression which was that he was quiet, or softspoken but strong. He introduced me to his son Daniel who looked to be still shaking off sleep. A real nice kid. Quiet like his father :o) Next Janet, and this was fun. I said hi, I’m Mike, kinda regular you know, and she said hi, I’m Janet, who are you wi…..SUPERSOLING! Gosh man. Janet is a nice huggy person. You know what I mean :o) It was like finally meeting my long lost sister and that’s the way she made me feel. Instant buddies. That moment will be etched in my memory forever, among many others. Eventually CabinGirl and her sons, who deserve a diary devoted just to them :o), came down from upstairs and she found me and introduced herself. Another Blog sister. I spent a good part of the day with them, which worked out good for me because you’de be hard pressed to find a nicer lady to hang out with. CabinGirl smiles a lot and I really like that about her. I met Cedwyn, a Kossack/Tribber who is difficult to describe only in that I want to do justice to the freespirit I found her to be. I felt lucky to spend a short time with her before we got seperated. She carried three small American Flags planted in her hair and she reminded me of a cross between a flower child and a Generation X’er, with a degree in political science. A woman after my own heart :o) I also met Ryan, Janet’s brother from Boston, really from Boston ;o) Another quiet guy, or so I thought ;o) Slip and Slide! I met Booman briefly, but as it turned out, I was able to spend some good time with him later during the rally. I think I can share a little of that later without revealing too much of the mystery of the guy. I then met Boston Joe who is…well…not from Boston as we now know, but from Michigan. This guy is sharp, as I’m sure you all know by now after reading his diary about the March. He’s another who is hard to describe. He smiles alot too. Like I said, I like that. And he can write like a Motherfu….:o) I met our esteemed Brother Feldspar who is a fine metropolitan man and a damned good photographer too. Without him, the Sunday that so touched those of us who spent it together, wouldn’t have been possible. Do me, and yourselves a favor and ask him about Franklin Roosevelt sometime :o) Last, but most certainly not least, not by a long shot, came Tracy. I think I can say that many of you probably feel the same way about her as I do. I feel drawn to her. She is a powerful force. I have been in awe of her since the first time I started reading her comments at dKos. When I went to and returned from Crawford without meeting her, even though I was there on the last day that she was there, I felt deeply disappointed. So having this opportunity to meet her come up again was something that made me very happy. It took some time for all of us to get comfortable with each other, even though we know so much about each other from here. It took me a little longer, but that’s just how I am. Janet asked me Sunday if I was ok. I guess something about the way I looked concerned her. That was nice. I assured her I was fine. I’m just a quiet person most of the time and I think to myself a lot. I can see how it might seem stand offish or distant, but it’s more about being shy.
Still with me? Good, good.
We decided that we should get going toward the Ellipse and try to find a place to get some coffee along the way, as in spite of Shycats planning and kind efforts, the hotel totally fucked up the breakfast she had so kindly arranged for us. You know what Shycat? I’ll gladly take the thought and caring that you put forth for us over any meal. You helped to fuel our hearts and our souls and the value of that will not soon be forgotten :o) A couple of blocks down, we found a Starbucks $!&*%?!! corporate coffee shop. Hey, coffee is essential. I’ll let it slide. Sorry, that’s the closet anarchist in me :o) Here I also met Frisco from dKos, another good guy. I watched him watching the events unfolding and you could see how pleased he was with it all. it was written all over his face. Dear Janet was reaching out to her Code Pink sisters as they passed by and in this way we met a nice lady from Texas who’d also been to Crawford. You know, no matter how big the world seems sometimes, there are moments, special moments, when it gets small enough again to put your arms around. Thank the Great Spirit for that.
Just before we moved on, a lady came up to me and warned me that I wouldn’t be allowed to bring my flag along because the authorities, who ever they were, were banning any kinds of sticks. To be honest here, when I got out of my truck at the metro station, I thought about that possibility and considered leaving it for that reason. That lasted about one split second till I told myself, fuck that, I’m bringing this flag. So, to the lady who warned me…nice try. I told my friends I’d carry my flag till someone stopped me and then they’de get only the stick ’cause I was keeping the flag. As it turned out, no one gave me a problem about it, lucky for them.
The Rally seemed to get off to a slow start. It was announced that thousands of people had been stranded all along the northeast corridor because of a supposed power failure with Amtrak. This did not go over well with the crowd, nor with us. At this point in our national nightmare, there’s nothing that I wouldn’t put past the slime bag Rove, but in spite of any craven White House attempt at delaying the inevitable, the longer the day got, the bigger the crowd got. Pictures don’t do it justice. BTW, while I’m on the subject of pictures, nearly my entire collection of pictures I took came out fuzzy and out of focus. Bummer. But there have been more than enough fine images posted by others here who know how to actually operate tricky machinery :o) It was here that we met up with the rest of the Kossack contingent. PastorDan mistook me for Booman because I wrote Booman at the bottom of my nametag to distinguish myself from the Kossack group. There I go being territorial again. Fortunately when I met up with Booman himself later, i was able to procure the very last BT shirt he had left, so I’ll never have that problem again. It was kinda uncomfortable for a second there as I struggled to think of something cosmically important to say like I’m sure Booman would have, but at least I had my fleeting moment of blog fame :o) At this time I was approached by a very elegant looking young lady named Tampopo. She came over and introduced herself to me and proceeded to make my entire day when she told me how much she liked reading the things that I post. Aw Shucks :o) I was lovin that for sure. You see, in spite of my downcast mood, I was surrounded by such exceptional people as she all day and were it not for them I think that it would’ve been so much more difficult for me to take away any positive feelings about the day. I don’t mean to say that I felt it was useless, quite the opposite. It’s the realization at the depths of the destructive direction our country is headed in that eats at me. Realistically, this is going to be a long struggle back to where we can even get back to the business of righting all the wrongs we had before Bush came along and started us on this catastrophic course.
I’ll end this first part of my recollection of the 24th with this picture of a lone bagpiper. Bagpipes produce such a mournful sound. When I hear them I always get a lump in my throat. Maybe this is because I associate that sound with a funeral. The thing is, I also associate that sound with an ancient, primal fierceness. So while I feel sorrowful when I hear them, at the same time I feel a pride and a determination swelling in me and that’s how I feel about our situation right now. My heart is breaking from witnessing all the senseless death and hatred that is being unleashed by our country’s actions. But at the same time I get a powerful sense of energy and resolve that somehow, all of us who care, will turn this around. I for one, pledge to you now, if you need me, I AM THERE. You can count on me, just like I know I can count on all of you to BE THERE. See.. I ain’t letting them take my country down to hell with them and they will never, ever, have my children to fight their criminal wars. Not without a hell of a fight.
looking forward to the subsequent chapter(s). And I wish I’d swallowed my fears and gone there too… π
I too look forward to reading more about your experience Supersoling. When I needed support you were there so feel a deep affection for you. The emails we exchanged at that time helped me tremendously. You(and so many others here)set the example, led the way for others to follow.
Through our disgust and fear for our country’s future, the future of our children and grandchildren we have taken the steps to do what we can to fight this criminal regime. The actions we have been taking, I believe are life changing. We are starting to walk the talk. My greatest hope is that we never give up, never say we are not making a difference. I know in my heart that we can do this, that we can stand strong as long as we continue to work together, encourage each other. ANd you can deny it all you want but in my eyes you are a warrior. It’s all over your actions and written in your words and for that I hold you dear to my heart my friend.
I feel the same way about you Lee. It’s difficult to remain optimistic all the time considering what we’re being forced to swallow on a daily basis, but I know I can come to you when my confidence is being shaken. That’s how it works here.
Well gee whiz Michael…now ya made me cry and smile at the same time. Looking forward to your next diary.
You know it was so therapuetic for me when I wrote my diaries about Crawford. There was a third one that never was written because Katrina happened the next day after my return and well, it just wasn’t the right time for me. I know now that the rest of the story was meant for you and the others to pick up in DC. May we all continue to work together in this way. Have a fabulous day my friend.
You are very kind, Mike ,an I am so glad that at least the rooms worked out!!GRRRRRRRRRRRR–the pricelss pic of BOO on the floor– well, all my friends have seen that now–We had some guests ,and that was the main attraction– –Take a look at this! But all the other wonderful pics that evoked the spirit of all , all, of you- well,my tear ducts have been in in overdrive. Congrats for all that all of you have done,and will do.
I’m right here behind you,let me know.
Huggles.
I’m bummed I did not get to meet you, Mike. I was a late arrival to the march, having made it just as Rena led the group over to Constitution (thank God for the orange flag). None of my pics show you, so perhaps you did not march with us?
All my pics, including Kossacks, Tribbers, Cindy Sheehan, Al Sharpton, Jesse Jackson, IVAW, VFP, CodePinkos, Crawford Peace House, Arlington West, and the massive sea of people – even a few wingnuts – are here:
http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/limboigah/album?.dir=f491
http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/limboigah/album?.dir=d669
Great diary. My Reflections, Part 1 is over at Kos – same user name.
Hey there π Great photos and thank you for sharing them.
I like this one alot –
http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/limboigah/detail?.dir=f491&.dnm=8d97.jpg&.src=ph
Shows that ALL types were there. π It was AMERICA!!!!
Me too. When Cindy began speaking I moved into the crowd in front of the rally stage and stayed there for a while. When I came back out you all were gone. I actually headed over to the concert stage after that where I listened to more compelling speeches. Walked around with CabinGirl and Booman for a while in between that too.
Great pictures by the way. How awesome that the Kos contingent got up in front with Cindy and Jesse Jackson. I have a feeling that we will see each other in the near future.
Thanks for commenting.
I would have been interested anyway, but it was you holding that great Flag so proudly at breakfast that was the thing that absolutely tipped me to take up one of the other dkos-contingent flags that Steven D had brought when the call for a volunteer went up: A Flag Story, or What Cindy & Jesse Gave My Daughter.
Great diary and I really look forward to connecting up with you again in the future.
Frisco, it was good to meet you too. I meant what I said in the diary about your delight being written all over your face. It was cool to watch it. I saw that repeated in countless ways and on countless other faces all day.
Looking forward to seeing you again another day.
Fantastic man, absolutely fantastic. Wish I could have been there, but things just did not allow that.
Looking forward to the rest of this diary, and I’ll catch them as I can.
As for the pic of BooMan, careful, the Repugs will be twisting that one into another Clinton Regime…LMAO
Peace bro….later
VERY glad to see you back around these parts,Infidelpig!!!
Well I’ll be damned!
If it ain’t the man himself!
I have this image of you ingrained in my mind as a modern day pied piper or Johnny Appleseed, moving through crowds of people as you find them through your travels, spreading the good word of Peace and the need for action. With respect…I see you walking point for all of us here, out front forging a trail towards redemption.
Thank you Sir for coming by again. I look forward to the next time.
He said it better than I could, IPig, it’s great to see your shining words here. Keep us in mind as you are in ours, WW.
Thank you Supersoling.
Thank you for filling my day with your passionate, touching voice. The powerful, quiet voice that speaks to so many of us.
Together, we will keep our flags. Together, we will keep our democracy. And together, we will stand as one to take our country back.
Bless you, brother.
You remember everybody so well!
How could I ever forget? You can meet a lot of people in the course of a day but many slip from memory. It’s the exceptional people like you that I reserve a place in my heart and memory for.
With shame, I hang my head now that I realize that I forgot to mention meeting MLK19569. She was at the hotel too when I got there. She and Brother Feldspar were instrumental in keeping all of us headed in the right direction and watching over us like shepards to see that we didn’t get too far flung from each other. When Cindy began to speak I moved away from our group and closer to the stage. While I was there the group took off for the march so when I turned back to look for them they were all gone….except for MLK and Brother F :o) They were waiting for me to come back out so I wouldn’t get lost. I appreciate that.
Thanks for the diary, nicely written. Wish I coulda been there.
Believe me, you were there.
I’ve read and read about the march ( next best thing to being there,) but this writing really “took me there” supersoling. Thank you for letting me see it so clearly through your srong and gentle eyes and heart.
I’m just not good at taking compliments. I never have been, but I guess I need to get over that. Your kind words and all those above, are helping me to get there.
It took me a long time to understand that it serves no one to make ourselves “smaller” than we really are. Clearly, this is one of the lessons on your agenda now…:) Nice work.
Supersoling, in describing your feelings and experiences, you have brought Sept 24th into sharp focus for us… I can almost hear the murmer of the crowd, feel the powerful undercurrents. I am so glad you brought your flag. I absolutely love the shots of you (in other diaries) with that flag. I think Tracy’s description of you as a warrior is right on.
I’m looking forward to your next installment. π
Supersoling, and all the rest of you awesome BooTribbers who went, thank you so much for representin’ :o) :o) :o)
I really really wanted to be there, first in Crawford, then in D.C. Circumstance was against me, but I feel better when I can at least read about it from your writings and the writings of all who were able to go.
It is only the beginning… not just to end this war and this regime of lies, but for so many of us. Alot of us were there to put a stop to things but in order to do that we need to start some things as well.
We kept our flags. We’ll keep em flying, too. I thought about what you said earlier, that you shared here, about your flag at home… and I think now Wayne is ready to go and buy one for our house. He had been tired of people dying over it, being lied to while blinded by the Republicans use of it. He knows what happened to me Monday and how we ALL carried the flag with us in and to DC. We are getting one for our house. Right next to the Bring Em Home and Pinkie stuff π
I’m glad you’ll be writing more. I can’t catch it all in my mind just yet. My memories are like fireworks right now – I’m in awe and amazement mode right now. You all are fucking shooting stars to me.
Some of the small things, the mere seconds of meeting someone, being kissed by someone, sharing a quick smile with an old man… seeing a baby wave a mini-flag while munching on a sack of cheerios… I’ll write something…but maybe like you all write it in parts.
And we can begin to write about what we will do next.
Do not engage… and all that I learned and shared… it came home. We have to have peace in our hearts our homes.
I asked you about how you can and others can be Peace Activists… when I’m reeling in so much anger and fury (you called me huggy, but you know the fire inside of me… I’m a walking contradiction LOL) and you shared that you were boiling over with anger, – that Peace wasn’t about not being angry but about wha tyou do with your anger.
Sunday, thank you Brother Feldspar,… You are forever my family.
But also are the old man who smiled at me as I walked by him, the baby with cheerios on his cheeks, the Iraq Vet being pushed by his sister, VFP anywhere and everywhere.
Peace isn’t about doing away with your anger – it’s, to me, about doing away with thinking of others as strangers.
I love you, Michael. It’s only the beginning.
I picked my daughter up from school yesterday. She is only a Sophomore and taking honors history…..she has always been such a whip in history (not my genes, I have no clue where it comes from). Anyhow she had wanted to use the phone to see if anybody was home yet with the surgery and me coming home from D.C. She asked her history teacher if she could go to the office and the teacher demanded more explanation (they all do down here), so she had to explain that I had gone D.C. The teacher assumed I had gone for the protest but didn’t really know which side I was on and she said something about Crawford and my daughter told her that I had gone to Crawford too. One of her classmates asked out loud, “Has your mother lost her mind?” My daughter said that her teacher told the student that no, Bren’s mom had not lost her mind….she is an activist. My daughter’s first question for me when she got in the car was, “Mom, are you an activist now?” I suppose so in a way. It was a nice verbal exchange of ideas to hear though in the deep dark South!
Well, describing you as a huggy person was just one of your fine character traits that I felt. Remember, this story will come in parts, so rest assured that I fully intend to convey to our friends here just how fiery and defiant you really are :o)
You are a role model to me, and I love you for that.
Trust me, I loved that you called me huggy π and you called me a sister. Shhhhhhhhhh I’m gonna start tearing up and I just put on masacara… priorities damnit, priotires π
I’m a walking talking contradiction. Even after going to DC, I’m still a beehive swarm of questions and concerns… but I have somewhat managed to focus a bit. I think we can do more if we focus… while allowing for the beautiful diversity of messages that were there in DC.
My heart couldn’t take the comments and diaries about the ahhh what would call it.. the criticism of the different messages and such about the march. Kyle, a man I got to meet at the Rally and had written to a few times when he reached out in the blogosphere to say he was arriving and where could we meet. He wrote this bit… A March on Washington Debrief: Mission Accomplished -by kyle.
We found friends there, we found answers and we found more questions.
I need to go back again. I want to return.
G-d there’s so much to feel, and think about… I’m just glad that I know you all are feeling the same overwhelming feelings.
You are not alone. And damnit you never ever will be. That is the biggest gift we all gave each other this weekend and since Crawford. Never again will we be alone.
I love you Michael. So very much. From the second I read your words here, and the instant I recognized your soul in person.
ok ok I’m shuddin’ up now π
Great diary supersoling. My heart has swelled up so big from being there. Reading the heart-felt diaries of others. Knowing it was not an illusion — this thing I felt and experienced. It is absolutely heartening.
Glad you are doing it in Chapters. Make it last longer. I want to be a part of something bigger. Want to take the next step. I don’t know which direction yet. But the war has to stop. There are too many of us who feel that way for it not to stop.
Check your email for an invite…
Invite. Sounds cool. But it didn’t come. I think my free e-mail sucks. And probably have spam blockers set on ultra-accept-nada. What did I miss out on?
It’s for our yahoo group…email me: cabingirl05, yahoo, you know the drill…that should allow me past your spam blocker…
JANET IS A HUGGY PERSON!
And a good thing too, as the world need more hugs.
Mike it was my privilege to meet you. The memories of that day will be etched in my mind forever. I’m glad you brought your flag. May you always fly it proudly.
You and your son are beyond the coolest. Each time I looked at you, you were smiling. Your son, Dan, he didn’t mind me touching his arms, I kept reaching out to so many… not just out of fear of getting LOST π but because it was all so overwhelming. Touching the arm of a friend kept me grounded I suspect.
You called me and Ry when you left and Ryan had wanted to talk to you to say so much but with so few words. You touched him. You touched all of us, Steven. xxxooxxx!!!!! I am so honored to know you and your family. Cripes that was a LONGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG march!
Ahhh.
You’re making me blush.
You’re really making my son blush. π
Thanbks Janet. I’m still decompressing. Came home and ate too much and got a little sick. Bad habit. But for all those who missed this march, make sure you go to the next one. It is food for your soul.
Quick cover it with sunscreen π
We have some more photos – Ry is going to burn me a copy and mail the photos to me. I’ll email you if there are any more of you and Dan.
Sorry you got sick. Wayne and the kids picked me up after the horrible freeper thunderstorm flight and took me to Chevy’s… I hadn’t eaten that day and I had two Grande Prickily Pear margies… I got a bit… toasted. But not sick. Just goofy mommy. And I still didn’t eat much of my food – too loopy
Decompressing – THAT’s IT – that’s the name for this feeling. π
Ahhh.
You’re making me blush.
You’re really making my son blush. π
Thanks Janet. I’m still decompressing. Came home and ate too much and got a little sick. Bad habit. But for all those who missed this march, make sure you go to the next one. It is food for your soul.
Just another example of why I love you so much. Great writing straight from the heart. And take it from one who knows, you are a Warrior for sure!
Can’t wait for the next parts of the story.
This is really great stuff!
Hugs
Shirl
Thank you Shirl,
any compliment from you is treasure to me. From the heart…well in so many ways and on so many different levels, I was touched by what engulfed me on Saturday. At one point while Rep. Maxine Waters was lacing into George, CabinGirl leaned over to me and said how great it was to hear Bush being called out for what he is, a liar, out in public. She read my mind and there is such a relief in hearing those kinds of things. It’s been so maddening to see our so called civil servants stand silently by while we and our country suffer one insulting injustice after another. So to finally hear someone actually say it is reassuring. I just don’t get their reluctance. The truth is the truth and its served best with all it’s accompanying ugliness.
a cross between a flower child and a Generation X’er, with a degree in political science.
LOL and a half!!!
how else could you describe a deadhead/avid sonic youth devotee/politics junkie!
you, sir, are one astute cookie! and a delightful fellow!
Well thank you dear,
though to be honest your Homeland Security Jacket had me wondering if our group had been infiltrated by a covert govt. operative. Then I thought, no, they haven’t figured out yet how to be that authentic in their disguises ;o)
Very funny moment as suddenly Cedwyn was explaining this “find” in a 2nd hand store. Gratefully, Cedwyn’s passion for the anti-war cause was obvious and we weren’t suffering an overabundance of tin-foil at the time! π
Wasn’t it even a pale shade of pink or pastel? I thought it was cute as hell.
Dear Super:
You have me anxious for the more to follow.
I do understand you conflicting emotions. To take back the country from this moneyed class will take some doing. Especially with the MSM in their pocket.
But hey, I’m not doing anything more important, and I doubt you are either.
Nope. Nothing, save for my family, is more important than this. Besides, this is about my family and their future.
Thanks for the comment.
A man who writes his first diary ASKING(!) others how he might be a better father for his daughters…is a very, very unusual and rare creature.
You write of the bittersweetness of the gathering on the 24th. There were smiles and laughter, certainly delight in connecting with people. Many here have expressed having the same sense as you, “Although I witnessed many uplifting moments along the way, I couldn’t shake the feelings of anger and sadness.”
Though there is anger and fear in us all, what I hear from you is your deep love for our country. Your choice of actions are coming from that place of love.
I imagine two faces twisted in anger, mouths open, shouting ugly and hateful words at each other. Does it matter if one has on a t-shirt that says, “I support the war” and the other reads, “I support peace?”
Aldous Huxley made a superb observation, “The end cannot justify the means for the simple and obvious reason that the means employed determine the nature of the ends produced.”
Then I imagine the man with the flag – MY flag – on a cloudy, gray day in D.C. and I know he will fight from the heart. It will look different.
Surely any man who would pass on an opportunity to tap into the knowledge and experience of the powerful female community at BT would be an unusual and rare creature. At least I would hope so. Either that, or he is a fool.
Thanks go to you and Mr. Huxley for reminding me where my feet should be planted and in which direction my gaze should be fixed.
And thanks for once again making my day :o)
You are very welcome.
I am finding myself in such a strange world, living in two very different places that at the same time are the same place.
One is the place that is taking in all (well, not ALL exactly) the information to be found. The arctic is melting; there is peak oil; there is an insane war going on (that MY country started!); I just watched a portion of my country get decimated and my fellow citizens suffer and die; and my government is dysfunctional with people using powerful words and making them meaningless; and … you know.
And the other place is where my kids talk of their dream futures and family and friends go about their lives, making plans, having gatherings, going to work, talking about the weather… you know.
And I don’t know what to do with what I know. I don’t know what to do with my fears and my anger and my sadness.
I can talk with people, “Hey did you read about the Cindy Sheehan being arrested?” And then we move to, “Don’t forget the Girl Scout nut order is due soon.”
Meeting you and the others gave me a chance to be with people who know what I know (plus a lot more!). I didn’t feel split. It was a relief to feel whole.
I, too, don’t know where we are headed. But I am in such good company π And I am learning from you.
Thank you!
Wanted to say thanks again for the boxes because i don’t know if you saw my thanks the first time — I haven’t had a chance to reply to you directly. Almost all of the things that you sent have been distributed — still have all of the magazines and stuff — they wouldn’t let me bring them into the evacuee shelters — I may see if I can take them to a homeless shelter or some such…anyway, wanted to say thanks agian for sending all of that!
Oh – you are welcome – THANK YOU!
If you can use the magazines, please do so, especially the kid ones.
If there is more stuff needed, please let me know.
My wish is that I could go around with you and then we could stop for a milkshake/coffee/beer and chat.
I wish you could too — more than you know!!
If you ever want to chat, Susan has my phone# — you are welcome to give a call and I will call you back (we have unlimited LD)!
It is a burden to carry the knowledge of what is truly happening to our country. This isn’t just some little episodic shift in the balance of power. I believe we are experiencing an extended, methodically planned and executed coup. So I understand what you mean when you say you feel split and unsure of what to do with what you know. How can one possible carry on in our everyday lives with this dark knowledge eating at us form the inside out? I don’t know. The best I can do is to persevere and to join with others, like you :o) who know, and who are willing to do more than just talk about it.
All I really have to go on is instinct and a personal refusal to sit still for it all. So here is my instinctual short answer, in my heart I believe that everything will be alright in the end because it has to be. But it won’t happen by chance or destiny, it will happen because of people like you who see and move on what they know to be right.
Peace
The thing about bagpipes is, they’re not just for mourning.
Right. I was expressing how they sound mournful to me. They have an almost wailing quality to them. From what little I’ve read about their history, they actually originated in the Middle East and gradually found their way to Europe. They were used to herald weddings, births, deaths, and community gatherings.
The Black Watch regiment of the British army that originated from the Scottish Highlands in the early 18th century used them when marching into battle as well, so you’re right that they’re for more than mourning.
The guy who is pictured above struck at me because he was alone and he was marching back and forth playing a mournful song. It was a perfect expression of how I felt at the time, mournful, yet defiant and determined.
Uncle’s funeral on the bagpipes.
really a good diary. However, when you say that this nation was born of the blood of dissenters and insurgents, you are not making a completely accurate analogy.
The “dissenters and insurgents” in 1776 were in fact led by and in many cases were wealthy landowners and businessmen (women apparently spent all their time at home weaving American Flags)who were sick of paying high taxes to a distant hereditary central government.
In fact, the original Yuppie, Alexander Hamilton, was both a military and ideological leader of the revolt. 1776 was, by and large, a revolt of free market conservatives (very similar to todays republicans) against an even more conservative (not to mention feudal)society, the English Monarchy.
To compare them with dissenters and insurgents of the 21st century who seek justice for the poor and an end to social and fiancial inequality is simply not accurate.
Thanks for your comments. What I was aiming for and probably missed, were the everyday farmer, or merchant, etc. who were being taxed into the ground and being forced to swear thier allegiance to the King of England while England and the wealthy land owners on both sides of the revolution were getting fat on their labor. They are the one’s who took up arms and bore the losses, and in my mind were dissenters and insurgents. I also mentioned this country’s faults and brutal past. I should have also mentioned it’s contradictions and hypocrisy. I identify with common people everywhere who seek to throw off the chains of repression and injustice. Any one of those who chooses to challenge whatever authority it is they are laboring under and who further makes the ultimate decision to take up arms against it’s government is an insurgent to me.
The American Revolution was really a revolt of the middle class against the monarchies, like its contemporary cousin, the French Revolution.
Today’s struggles are against the descendents of middle class/capitalist virtue known as Republicans.
The evolution of the class struggle, as Marx might say.