this diary is dedicated to all who suffer because of war and other disasters
cross-posted at DailyKos, Booman Tribune, European Tribune, and My Left Wing.
image and poem below the fold
This photo provided by the U.S. Army, shows Sgt. Charles L. Floyd Jr. in an undated photo. Floyd, 28, of Manhattan, N.Y., was killed Saturday, Dec. 10, 2005, in Taji, Iraq when his unit was attacked by enemy forces, the Army said.
(AP Photo/U.S. Army)
Cicada
by John Blair
A youngest brother turns seventeen with a click as good as a roar,
finds the door and is gone.
You listen for that small sound, hear a memory.
The air-raid sirens howled of summer tornadoes, the sound
thrown back against the scattered thumbs
of grain silos and the open Oklahoma plains
like the warning wail of insects.
Repudiation is fast like a whirlwind.
Only children don’t know that all you live is leaving.
Yes, the first knowledge that counts is that everything stops.
Even in the bible-belt, second comings are promises
you never really believed;
so you turn and walk into the embrace of the world
as you would to a woman, an arrant
an orphic movement as shocking as the subtle
animal pulse of a flower opening, palm up.
We are all so helpless.
I can look at my wife’s full form now
and hope for children,
picture her figured by the weight of babies.
Only, it’s still so much like trying to find something
once lost. My brother felt the fullness of his years, the pull
in the gut that’s almost sickness. His white
smooth face is gone into living and fierce illusion,
a journey dissolute and as immutable
as the whining heat of summer.
Soon enough, too soon, momentum just isn’t enough.
Our tragedy is to live in a world
that doesn’t invite us back.
We slow, find ourselves sitting in a room that shifts so slightly
we can only imagine the difference.
I want to tell him to listen.
I want to tell him what it is to crave darkness,
to want to crawl headfirst into a dirt-warm womb
to sleep, to wait seventeen years,
to emerge again.
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