My Speech to the Universe
Tomorrow I go in for a CT angiogram on my failing kidneys to see if I am a candidate for vascular surgery (This is like bypass surgery on the heart.) I am as stressed as Bush probably is tonight, although for extremely different reasons.
I am concerned if my Medicare will allow the surgery; I am worried about the cost of the many new meds I am sure I will have to take (I did not sign up for Medicare D because none of the plans carried all my meds and I saw its falacy.)
I am concerned about life after death issues. I need to update my living will.
I need to find out if the surgery will hurt me more than my scleroderma (scleroderma makes surgery very iffy due to hardened organs, shrunken restrictive blood vessels etc.) than letting the kidneys fail on there own, especially since my nephrologist told me they have been inefficient/failing since 1997 (None of my other doctors mentioned this fact because at that time they were more concerned about abnormal liver tests which took a year to go back to normal due to a new medicine I was put on’s side effect.)
We are the wealthiest nation in the world, (well actually 57% of all the wealth is held by 1% of the population.) We have the best medical equipment, professionals and medicine (if one can afford them); And we have a bunch of lunatics pulling the strings on almost every aspects of our lives.
I’ve instructed my husband and daughter that if I go brain dead or get dementia etc., or in too much pain to pull the plug or arrange for meds I can take to end my life. I don’t want to be a burden and now I have to add if it gets too expensive to be on dialysis, have in-home care etc., I’ll find a way to opt out earlier.
I shouldn’t have to think this way, but I am sure there are thousands, if not millions, who are having to think this way now also, thanks to the lies, and corporate/pharmecutical theft by the compassionate conservative asshole president and his kind. There is more to life (and death) than this f**king president’s sotu stupid speech tonite.
I am not looking for sympathy. I just want to bring a dose of reality on to the table for all to see and consider. Because we all will eventually, if not already, have to deal with these issues. And if things don’t get better it could actually get worse than this.
I intend to approach tomorrow and whatever else is ahead of me with my political dukes ready. I will not go out with a whimper…I hope.
We need a universal health care system in America. I think I’ve missed that boat, but I hope most of you fight for that for yourselves and your families.
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It’s up to us, each and every individual blogger @BooMan’s Place, to carry the torch forward. Defeat the Bush cabal soonest in Midterm 2006 for Congressional seats, and kick their ass out of the White House and Washington D.C. in 2008.
Take care roseeriter, and fight that unfair battle for personal health with hands tied behind your back because of a lacking universal healthcare plan for ALL Americans. Our thoughts and prayers will be passed on to you during this personal ordeal.
“But I will not let myself be reduced to silence.”
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Thanks OUI!
This is something worth fighting for. It is to our great shame as a nation that so many go without medical care. I hear Bush is planning to address health care tonight by offering tax credits and encouraging competition. Again, putting a bandaid on a gaping wound.
I will fight till my dying breath and I’ve also told my daughter she better take up the mantle- she’s a good daughter and usually does what I tell her to do LOL!
I’ve never really talked with you, but your words have resonated with me for more than a year, here and at Big Orange.
Just last weekend, on a road trip with my wife, I quoted some of your thoughts to her. You were one of three people from Booman Tribune that I mentioned to her. (She is not part of this group.)
You are making an impact.
For what it’s worth, I will add you to my daily Rosary. You’d be surprised how often that helps!
Thank you for your prayers and for thinking of me. I am flattered that you quoted me.:-)
But even as I pray for you, I am going to fuss at you.
You are educated enough in these matters to know that the will to live, the will to recover, in a patient is every bit as important as the technical body mechanics.
You have too much work to do, too many people who need you, both those who love you, and those who never met you, to give all this life after death stuff more than the most perfunctory swiff.
Believe me, you can manage to keep yourself alive and functional through sheer mule-headedness, curiosity, and if you have enemies, spite.
Go have your CAT scan, listen to what they say, take notes if you need to, and whatever they tell you, get a second opinion.
You may be an expert already, but do some more research. Make sure you are not overlooking some option that you should look into.
But most of all, take care of yourself. And that means using your stubborn-ness to make sure that you are around for to keep telling people of the need for health care. And helping them cope with scleroderma. And giving them the gift of sharing a planet with you, for a long time to come! 🙂
I’m not a quitter, but sometimes I am weak and need a kick in the butt:-) Thanks.
It will not be a kick, nor a hand that gives the push when you stand on the edge.
It will be a hand to pull you back, and the foot, will be the first step back from the edge ; )
As the ol’ doc will say: “Take two of these, and call me in the morn’n”
Peace, and Stay Strong Friend.
Thanks IP- nice to see you back- just got back from my tests- definite Chronic Kidney Failure- I’ll find out my course of actions on the 15th
Encourage all around you to give you hugs, let them take care of you. Love, and that good old mule-headedness, have a way of putting fear in its place. Let it have that place, and a glass of punch, all the other places will soon be filled with other things. Like love, and that good old muleheadedness. 😉
Consider yourself hugged by me till you squeak!