Goodbye to the American anti-war movement, that is. And we are all lesser for it. Here is the text of the message she posted at After Downing Street:
I have endured a lot of smear and hatred since Casey was killed and especially since I became the so-called “Face” of the American anti-war movement. Especially since I renounced any tie I have remaining with the Democratic Party, I have been further trashed on such “liberal blogs” as the Democratic Underground. Being called an “attention whore” and being told “good riddance” are some of the more milder rebukes.
I have come to some heartbreaking conclusions this Memorial Day Morning. These are not spur of the moment reflections, but things I have been meditating on for about a year now. The conclusions that I have slowly and very reluctantly come to are very heartbreaking to me.
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The first conclusion is that I was the darling of the so-called left as long as I limited my protests to George Bush and the Republican Party. Of course, I was slandered and libeled by the right as a “tool” of the Democratic Party. This label was to marginalize me and my message. How could a woman have an original thought, or be working outside of our “two-party” system?
However, when I started to hold the Democratic Party to the same standards that I held the Republican Party, support for my cause started to erode and the “left” started labeling me with the same slurs that the right used. I guess no one paid attention to me when I said that the issue of peace and people dying for no reason is not a matter of “right or left”, but “right and wrong.”
I am deemed a radical because I believe that partisan politics should be left to the wayside when hundreds of thousands of people are dying for a war based on lies that is supported by Democrats and Republican alike. It amazes me that people who are sharp on the issues and can zero in like a laser beam on lies, misrepresentations, and political expediency when it comes to one party refuse to recognize it in their own party. Blind party loyalty is dangerous whatever side it occurs on. People of the world look on us Americans as jokes because we allow our political leaders so much murderous latitude and if we don’t find alternatives to this corrupt “two” party system our Representative Republic will die and be replaced with what we are rapidly descending into with nary a check or balance: a fascist corporate wasteland. I am demonized because I don’t see party affiliation or nationality when I look at a person, I see that person’s heart. If someone looks, dresses, acts, talks and votes like a Republican, then why do they deserve support just because he/she calls him/herself a Democrat?
I have also reached the conclusion that if I am doing what I am doing because I am an “attention whore” then I really need to be committed. I have invested everything I have into trying to bring peace with justice to a country that wants neither. If an individual wants both, then normally he/she is not willing to do more than walk in a protest march or sit behind his/her computer criticizing others. I have spent every available cent I got from the money a “grateful” country gave me when they killed my son and every penny that I have received in speaking or book fees since then. I have sacrificed a 29 year marriage and have traveled for extended periods of time away from Casey’s brother and sisters and my health has suffered and my hospital bills from last summer (when I almost died) are in collection because I have used all my energy trying to stop this country from slaughtering innocent human beings. I have been called every despicable name that small minds can think of and have had my life threatened many times.
The most devastating conclusion that I reached this morning, however, was that Casey did indeed die for nothing. His precious lifeblood drained out in a country far away from his family who loves him, killed by his own country which is beholden to and run by a war machine that even controls what we think. I have tried every since he died to make his sacrifice meaningful. Casey died for a country which cares more about who will be the next American Idol than how many people will be killed in the next few months while Democrats and Republicans play politics with human lives. It is so painful to me to know that I bought into this system for so many years and Casey paid the price for that allegiance. I failed my boy and that hurts the most.
I have also tried to work within a peace movement that often puts personal egos above peace and human life. This group won’t work with that group; he won’t attend an event if she is going to be there; and why does Cindy Sheehan get all the attention anyway? It is hard to work for peace when the very movement that is named after it has so many divisions.
Our brave young men and women in Iraq have been abandoned there indefinitely by their cowardly leaders who move them around like pawns on a chessboard of destruction and the people of Iraq have been doomed to death and fates worse than death by people worried more about elections than people. However, in five, ten, or fifteen years, our troops will come limping home in another abject defeat and ten or twenty years from then, our children’s children will be seeing their loved ones die for no reason, because their grandparents also bought into this corrupt system. George Bush will never be impeached because if the Democrats dig too deeply, they may unearth a few skeletons in their own graves and the system will perpetuate itself in perpetuity.
I am going to take whatever I have left and go home. I am going to go home and be a mother to my surviving children and try to regain some of what I have lost. I will try to maintain and nurture some very positive relationships that I have found in the journey that I was forced into when Casey died and try to repair some of the ones that have fallen apart since I began this single-minded crusade to try and change a paradigm that is now, I am afraid, carved in immovable, unbendable and rigidly mendacious marble.
Camp Casey has served its purpose. It’s for sale. Anyone want to buy five beautiful acres in Crawford, Texas? I will consider any reasonable offer. I hear George Bush will be moving out soon, too…which makes the property even more valuable.
This is my resignation letter as the “face” of the American anti-war movement. This is not my “Checkers” moment, because I will never give up trying to help people in the world who are harmed by the empire of the good old US of A, but I am finished working in, or outside of this system. This system forcefully resists being helped and eats up the people who try to help it. I am getting out before it totally consumes me or anymore people that I love and the rest of my resources.
Good-bye America…you are not the country that I love and I finally realized no matter how much I sacrifice, I can’t make you be that country unless you want it.
It’s up to you now.
I disagree with her on one point. Casey didn’t die for nothing. His death led to the best leader the anti-war movement in this country ever had or could have had. If there is an afterlife, I know he is very proud of her.
Regrettably, that’s about the only thing I disagree with her about. The Democratic Party never embraced Cindy except when it was to their benefit. If anyone abused and misused her son’s death it was the politicos who were happy to sing her praises when she was speaking out against Bush, but who abandoned her and her message of peace when they achieved what they wanted in 2006: an electoral victory.
She is right to be dismayed about the course of our nation, and the state of our political system. What has been done to her by the partisans of both parties, and by the news media, is shameful. They have dishonored and besmirched a great American, and a better human being than most of the rest of us on this planet.
Hat tip to Howie Martin, whose email alerted me to Cindy’s missive.
I’ve held thoughts quite like hers for some time now and have been looked upon as though I’d just plopped a steaming turd in the middle of the room. I am very happy (and saddened, as she has been a source of inspiration) to see Cindy come around to this point of view. I hope it — along with the all-to-predictable crass cowardice shown by the Dems this past week — will serve as a wake-up call to the rest of the movement as they realize how the nearly exclusive focus on the president’s perfidy has sapped the moral rectitude of the movement and drug it down into the morass of the cynical circus that passes for political discourse in this country.
As to the sad truth about Casey’s death,while I agree with you Steven about the silver lining, I also agree with Cindy. It’s been about the saddest Memorial Day I’ve ever experienced, prompting
this post.
Still the beet antiwar poem ever written.
Typo correction: that should have been “best” antiwar poem ever.
well, I guess that is that. one more nail in the coffin. Some will say that it is a wake up call. Not Me. It may well be the death knell of the dem party. the goopers march on. the dems flail. I guess what I am saying again is- we must have a new party. MUST!
Flail. Nah. lay there and let the world walk all over their grave.
What Cindy observes is all true, but change is very hard for many people and most societies. The kind of anti-beliefs she is espousing will not likely come about is a single jugular strike because most people just cannot admit and sustain such a rapid overturning of their core belief system. This is probably some kind of natural safeguard for our limited ability to tolerate changes or our limited homeostatic abilities.
However, the underlying current for discontent that Cindy hopes for is there to a degree, and the best example of it was that massive 2 minute booing episode at the UMass graduation when the administration showed how out of touch it was with the students. This discontent is the seed for change, but I feel the speed of change will have to be more gradual than Cindy would like!
I don’t blame her. Her courage and tenacity are amazing. I don’t know how she lasted this long. People from both sides attacked her not only for her views, but also for ability to get publicity (duh) and loathsomely her voice and appearance.
But though she is stepping out, we have to pick up the banner and carry on.
http://www.boomantribune.com/story/2005/8/13/22559/1285
With the exception of the births of my children, making the trip to Camp Casey and meeting Cindy has to be the most important and life altering event I’ve ever experienced. And so I hope she knows that Casey lives on not only in her heart but in the hearts of those he and she touched deeply enough to birth a journey for others. For me, for Alohaleezy, Military Tracy, Brinnainne, Adastra, Janet Strange and so many others. He did not die in vain and I’m happy for her that she is going home.
Hi Super.
Hope all is going well with you.
Another bad Memorial Day, eh?
Hi Steven,
and thanks, all is well…well…allis ;o)
I hope the same for you, your wife and kids too.
I think that every Memorial Day is bad. A bad reminder of the waste and futility of fighting wars. It’s well to commemorate the sacrifices of individuals but to my mind nearly all those deaths and injuries are unnecesarry. There’s something morbid and twisted about commemorating war in any way.
Peace
btw,
you’ve been hammering out some intense writing lately Steven. More so than usual. I appreciate it.
I never met Cindy, but I feel like I know her well enough to say this to her now, if I could.
Cindy, go home and rest for now: you badly need to renew and refill yourself. You have sustained an effort the likes of which few of us ever could, for so long now, at a cost no one but you and yours can ever measure. Whatever it cost your other children, the choices you have had to make, over and over, to follow your calling, cost you even more, I know.
You know you will be back: you will not be able to stay silent for long. But now, yes indeed, it is time to take care of your body, and of your own life, for a bit.
As for your boy, there is more than one way to fight a horribly unnecessary war. He did his part by going and by his death, motivating you to the immense effort you have taken on in his name. That can be called many things, but dying in vain is not one of them. You’re a team, you and Casey. One powerful, incredibly courageous team. It is my honor to share these times with you both.
See you soon, Cindy.
I understand her frustration. Get some rest, Cindy, and come back because this country needs your voice. Peace.
I wonder what it is about true heroes like Cindy that scare the shit out both the left and the right?..I don’t blame the right for what they did exactly that is what they always do-viciously vilify anyone who speaks the truth it’s once again the so called democrat politicians who refused to stand up and stand by her side and be counted, continuing to prove they have no backbones.
She became a hero to many of us in spite of the right wing and left wing attacks and in spite of the fact the media basically trashed her. She somehow managed to break through all that and become a not only a symbol of the peace movement but how one ordinary human being can do and cause extraordinary things to happen. I think she also gave us hope that one person still can make a difference and if one person can then millions of one persons together should be able to take back this country, right?
It’s pretty damned near impossible to shame a president who doesn’t feel shame. But she did a couple of summers ago. Paid a heck of a personal price in the process. Kudos to Ms. Sheehan for being true to herself. As for those who sought to silence her through personal attacks, the rest of the world knows who is in the right here and who isn’t. Not many in the right live “inside the beltway”. Hopefully more than a few politicos feel some shame today.