I’m posting this just because I can and I feel like it and I think more people should read it. I have always thought that it was not only the best thing Hunter S. Thompson ever wrote, but also one of the few beautiful things he ever wrote. His writing was generally very good, but not in a poignant or nostalgic way. This is different.
Strange memories on this nervous night in Las Vegas. Five years later? Six? It seems like a lifetime, or at least a Main Era—the kind of peak that never comes again. San Francisco in the middle sixties was a very special time and place to be a part of. Maybe it meant something. Maybe not, in the long run . . . but no explanation, no mix of words or music or memories can touch that sense of knowing that you were there and alive in that corner of time and the world. Whatever it meant. . . .
History is hard to know, because of all the hired bullshit, but even without being sure of “history” it seems entirely reasonable to think that every now and then the energy of a whole generation comes to a head in a long fine flash, for reasons that nobody really understands at the time—and which never explain, in retrospect, what actually happened.
My central memory of that time seems to hang on one or five or maybe forty nights—or very early mornings—when I left the Fillmore half-crazy and, instead of going home, aimed the big 650 Lightning across the Bay Bridge at a hundred miles an hour wearing L. L. Bean shorts and a Butte sheepherder’s jacket . . . booming through the Treasure Island tunnel at the lights of Oakland and Berkeley and Richmond, not quite sure which turn-off to take when I got to the other end (always stalling at the toll-gate, too twisted to find neutral while I fumbled for change) . . . but being absolutely certain that no matter which way I went I would come to a place where people were just as high and wild as I was: No doubt at all about that. . . .
There was madness in any direction, at any hour. If not across the Bay, then up the Golden Gate or down 101 to Los Altos or La Honda. . . . You could strike sparks anywhere. There was a fantastic universal sense that whatever we were doing was right, that we were winning. . . .
And that, I think, was the handle—that sense of inevitable victory over the forces of Old and Evil. Not in any mean or military sense; we didn’t need that. Our energy would simply prevail. There was no point in fighting—on our side or theirs. We had all the momentum; we were riding the crest of a high and beautiful wave.
. . .
So now, less than five years later, you can go up on a steep hill in Las Vegas and look West, and with the right kind of eyes you can almost see the high-water mark—that place where the wave finally broke and rolled back.
― Hunter S. Thompson, Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas: A Savage Journey to the Heart of the American Dream
I think about this passage quite often. It’s hard to express what it means to me. But it has informed how I think about the reactionaries, how I think of the Old and Evil, how I think about the New Left, how I think about the battle, and what I think is possible.
And in some ways I think we had our own moment in Las Vegas back in 2006. And five, six years later you could look back with the right kind of eyes and see the high-water mark of the progressive blogosphere, when we shared a common purpose and a certainty that we were winning.
I think of this passage nearly every day.
Boy, do I miss that guy and the mojo wire.
I don’t have any sort of sentimental attachment to the 60s, but Thompson’s image of the high-water mark hit me like a ton of bricks the first time I read it, and has stuck with me ever since. Just a great piece of writing.
It’s really electric in what the prose is able to do. I was always chasing the faint echo of that spark. You know, Dead tour in 1984 was already a dissipated and enervated scene as far as the lifers were concerned, But for a kid, it still had that certain something that comes alive when tens of thousands of people of good-will with open minds congregate together to celebrate a set of ideals. You know, the pulse of it lived on through the heroin, through the cocaine, through the disappointment. If just grew fainter and weaker. And then the band hit it big in 1987 with their Touch of Grey single, and the lifeline back to the sixties became so thin you had to turn your head sideways to see it.
For Hunter, it already felt dead by 1970. But if you wanted to find it, it was still there.
I am (was?) one of those “lifers” 😉 First saw ’em in the park, 1967, on a flatbed trailer. Still do, occasionally, in one iteration or venue or another.
I can still see it, even here on the High Desert… we were winning. What. The. Fuck. Happened?
For Hunter Thompson, it already felt dead by 1970. But if you wanted to find it, it was still there. He was dead by 1970 or thereabouts. Brain dead from too many chemicals, at the very least. And yes, it was still there. It’s always “still there.”
It doesn’t take the same visible form from decade to decade or culture to culture, but…bet on it…it’s always available.
All you have to do is abandon all hope, ye who enter (
t)here. Because hope is itself a dream. A limiter, a futile attempt to drag the universe down into a fiinite, happy ending.That’s not the way it works, this universe.
It doesn’t “end.”
It just keeps on evolving.
Bet on that as well.
I am.
Later…
AG
The chemicals are not the issue.
Bullshit.
He wrote:
More bullshit.
From his first book about The Hell’s Angels…by whom he got his ass thoroughly kicked, I might add…HST was on a kamikaze ride, just looking to die. When he failed in all of those “suicide by (fill in the blank)” projects, he had to go do-it-yourself style.
A waste. A great talent. A waste.
Without the chemicals? Still a great talent. Even greater, maybe.
We’ll never know.
So it goes.
AG
C,mon, AG.
The kamikaze line isn’t bullshit. It’s ironic. Almost sarcastic. He’s toying with his subjects.
He really did talk football during a limo ride with Nixon. But I doubt the part about the gas tank really happened at all.
So what?
He blew his head off with a shotgun while on the phone to his wife.
“Ironic?’
“Sarcastic?”
“Toying with his subjects?”
Or just another suicidal basket case?
It’s just as likely that the Nixon ride is imaginary and the gas tank idiocy is real. And just as unlikely as well. Who cares about the possible “truths” of the matter?
The real truth?
He took himself out. Unless of course you are into some kind of conspiracy theory regarding his death. As if a blown-out druggie who had given up on doing anything other than living out his self-created image could threaten the PermaGov to the point of assassination.
Please.
A wasted talent and a wasted life.
I pity him.
AG
Yeah Booman, I read that passage for the first time when I was probably about 15, and the image of a high water mark in the California mountains still burns brightly through almost three decades.
This does something for me too, even though I was born in the late 60’s. A paraphrased version appears as a dialogue track on the Fear and Loathing soundtrack, leading into “Get Together” by The Youngbloods.
There are several HST passages that are favorites of mine. The Edge bit from Hells Angels, the Aztlan piece, the Nixon obit from Better than Sex, the entire Kentucky Derby piece, the John Mitchell paranoia bit from his Watergate coverage, the cheap shots at Reagan from Generation of Swine.
I can’t choose–but the Wave is definitely one of his best. I actually also really like the Rum Diary novel. The movie didn’t do it justice at all.
You know i wasn’t even remotely alive during that time. But it seems to me that though ‘we” were winning, the “assured victory” was only an illusion. It seems no one knew the true nature of what we were up against….. and when some began to realize, they quit or joined up with the establishment.
But the thing is, now we know. I don’t think there is a person in the lefty blogosphere who doesn’t understand the breadth and depth of what we’re up against. Sure we have different ideas on how to tackle it, but we know what it is. And there is true power in understanding “the Nothing’s” nature.
That high water mark in the late 60’s early 70’s was because many retreated in the face of it. There will be no retreat this time…..
Because 1: I believe in the inherent goodness of man. And that will win out.
And 2:
Our society can no longer function under the old illusion. We’ve used up all those chips. Maxed out those cards. The dysfunction of how we see, govern and express ourselves to the world will have to be addressed. We can either address it willingly or unwillingly. But there are no more places to run from it.
We can clearly see “The Nothing’s” true form this time. And that is a good thing