Today, my wife and I left Worcester, Mass. without the most precious asset we created for our country.
Our daughter.
She’s 18 years old.
She’s gorgeous and smart:
She’s always the loudest person in the room. I turn off my hearing aid sometimes without telling her just to give my ears a rest.
She’s half Japanese American and half German/Irish/Scotch/Welsh/French/Who knows what else. The beauty and brain she got from her mother (I like to think I’m responsible for some of her other good qualities. I’m just not sure which ones).
She’s in her own words “the straightest lesbian” in America (don’t ask me, I didn’t say it).
She love cows, and I don’t mean she loves to eat them. And she’ll tell anyone who asks, and anyone who won’t.
She makes friends easier than Philadelphians scarf down Cheese Steaks, than New Yorkers flip each other off over jaywalking violations, than Rednecks get, well, red necks from too little sun screen and not enough melanin in their necks (i.e. people like me), than – well you get the picture.
One of her grandfathers was a man who revolutionized the earliest computer modeling of hurricane development while working at NYU, NCAR and NOAA (Google the acronyms on your own time).
Her other grandfather was an influential and highly regarded statistician who helped revolutionize the statistical field of sampling theory.
Her Grandmother survived the fire-bombing of Tokyo.
She survived my fumbling attempts at parenting.
Her friends include artists, actors, writers, teachers, bullied kids, people with mental disorders, theater kids, jocks, goth kids, LGBT kids, kids who cut themselves, and (sadly) cute boys.
Others include fundamentalist Christians, Muslims, Buddhists, Hindus and (I know, how ghastly!) atheists.
One of her best friends includes a young talented American gay now attending a school of the arts in NYC for whom she woke up early last week to see off at the train station because that’s what friends do even if all but one of his other friends was unwilling to do the same.
She always smiles at everyone she meets.
She loves anime and manga (again, Google is your friend).
She loves the Lord of the Rings but not the Twilight series.
She tells me she’s socially awkward one moment and then the next has her two new roommates enchanted with her outgoing and “out there” personality.
She’s a talented painter.
She is a talented pianist.
She aced her AP classes (well until she got senioritis, but she still aced her AP exams).
She did all this despite suffering from ADHD (no, it wasn’t a misdiagnosis and she hates that people don’t take her disorder seriously) and an occasionally severe anxiety disorder, both of which were first diagnosed at the age of seven.
She loves her grandparents and her other relatives who belong to the Tea Party even when they try to tell her everything she believes about justice and equality is wrong and that I brainwashed her into being a “liberal socialist Democrat” (as if she ever listened to anything I had to say!).
She’s a whiz at math and science. Yes, that’s right a “little girl” all of 5′ 2 and 3’4″ is smarter than your average male geek, and more creative to boot.
She’s an ethical vegetarian. She became one after learning about the horrific conditions at factory farms of animals.
She’s a fighter. Tough as nails. Doesn’t take shit from anyone. Never backs down from a fight. Stands up for her beliefs no matter who challenges her. Terrified of the dark, sure, but the bravest person I know. A helluva lot braver than yours truly.
She supports and forgives her friends even when they make mistakes. Even when she has been betrayed by them.
She believes the life every human being has value and deserves society’s support, especially after he or she is born.
She feels we should be judged by how we treat the most vulnerable in our country, not by how how many wars we fight, or millionaires we create at the expense of fairness and justice for all.
She cannot fathom why people want to hurt other people, but she’d like to find a way to make them stop.
She can’t tolerate guns used to kill people around the world, racist acts, prejudice of any kind, greedy corporations that screw over their workers and their consumers, anyone who fails to understand that science is real and the best means we have at understanding reality, and “stupid” people, (i.e., people who engage in any of the foregoing or enable those who do). She’s willing to give them a second chance to redeem themselves, however.
She lost her beloved piano teacher to cancer after spending weeks with him at a local hospice, and gave a heart breaking and yet hilarious eulogy at his funeral, even as she grieved deeply at his passing too young at the age of 64, and still does to this day.
She also helped save the mind and soul of her mother, a pancreatic cancer survivor who suffered brain damage from chemotherapy, and has been brought back from the brink of despair in no small part part because of the tireless efforts of my daughter, who was always there with a smile, a calm word, a gentle touch, a funny joke – whatever it took to make her beloved mother know that she was still needed, still loved, still had something to offer the world despite her cognitive disabilities. Without my daughter’s maturity, support, love and kindness my wife might have been lost to us, not because of her cancer, but because she no longer felt she was worthwhile. My daughter taught her mother that she still has much to offer this world, and returned her to the love of her family, a debt I can never repay.
How specifically will my daughter save the world?
My daughter plans to become a biomedical engineer and wants to create something that will make a difference in the lives of people, people who now die or suffer from lack of adequate treatments for their ailments. Know what? If she says she going to do that, she will.
She and thousands of young, bright, talented committed woman just like her are not going to let the human race go down without a fight just because a lot of old, dead from the neck up white men think making useless piles of money is more important than saving and improving the lives of the species with which all of us poor human beings share this small but invaluable outpost of life in a vast universe of lifelessness.
She is going to change the world for the better, she and her generation.
She and they are not willing to wait for the politicians of this world to lead the way to a better tomorrow. She thinks they are taking too damn long to get with the program.
Don’t you dare bet against her or those other young women out there in the world just as dedicated, brave, committed and compassionate and feisty as she is.
I’m going to miss having her around, but everyone has to make sacrifices these days. Even old farts like me.
She does have TWO big problems. She is not perfect.
She has a boyfriend.
And she is a New England Patriots Fan despite my best efforts to make her see the inherent logic in supporting the Denver Broncos (my team).
Dad is doing his best to live with her imperfections. After all, I’m depending on her and her friends to save the world, so I guess it’s the least I can do.
Congratulations, Dad. This household wishes her well, and may she succeed in saving the world.
The kids are OK.
Thanks Tarheel Dem. That means a lot.
I had a daughter who was ADD and made it through a good liberal arts college in the Midwest and then went to grad school at one of the top East Coast universities.
Her biggest issue in college was what she called the “drinking through a firehose” problem. The volume of material that she was expected to master in a short time was such that her ADD became a problem–both through distraction and through over-focus. The other problem was the overwhelming timed tests. Same two issues. She had to figure out her own tricks to cope with this.
My daughter is now a Sophomore at one of the highest rated universities in the world, and had this exact same problem. Turns out she has extreme test anxiety and all this time we just chalked it up to “she doesn’t test well”. Now she gets to take her tests in a different room and gets time and a half. While she still has anxiety issues, she has found it helps somewhat. I encourage all new college kids to use the resources available. Hidden disabilities are still disabilities.
Oh my God Boo boo. I had two, the day when I looked backed from my real view mirror, and they were waving goodbye to me, for a dorm room. It took all I had not to turn the car around, and swooped them back to their little bedrooms, with the cute wall paper, and their safe little beds.
After years of their self actualization, and the “I don’t think I really want to be a doctor, lawyer, (fill in the blanks). I now receive weekend phone calls, from happy, educated, well adjusted adults who share my DNA, and realize that all the love, sacrifice, (grey hairs) were all worth. Congrats to being a wonderful parent. You deserve it.
There is no substitute for the love of a father – I’m glad for you and I wish her the best, although she already has that in a father who loves her.
Seriously, if every father on the planet loved his daughter the way you do, the world would improve exponentially. What a gift. Thanks for sharing.
She is wonderful and perfect in every way and bonus for being a Pats fan!
Congratulations and all the best!!
Congratulations! I went to school in Worcester – it’s a hidden gem of a city, with some amazing theater, and a great culture. Tell her about the Higgins Armory museum. It’s going to close, permanently, in December, and it’s so worth visiting, at least once.
I hope she has a great time, and learns everything she needs to jump start her dreams. It’s clear she’s already made her parents proud, so we can cross that one off the list.
Could be worse things than a boyfriend in a kilt. He could be… well, I’m sure there’s something. (My daughter is a senior now and the boyfriend is an open secret, for some reason; we’re allowed to acknowledge his existence, nice kid, but not his boyfrienditude.) We didn’t do everything wrong, did we? Because they definitely are going to save the world. Congrats.
This new generation keep me modestly optimistic. I am sure your daughter will do great things.
There’s a sci-fi author who hangs around here at BT who is probably in his kilt more often than not, judging from the photos I’ve seen.
Congratulations Steven! Sounds as if you got the dad thing pretty much right. She’s a lovely young woman. Hope she has a wonderful, fulfilling happy life, no matter what she chooses to do with it.
What a charming post! As the father of two daughters, “been there, done that,” to some degree.
One of mine is bisexual, which may explain her “daughter from hell” teenage years and 20s, but at age 30 as a single mom she turned her life around completely and graduated at the top her nursing school class. She now works at one of the top hospitals in New Mexico.
My other (middle child) daughter really is trying to “save the world.” After graduating from Univ. of Scranton (a Jesuit university) she shocked me by doing a year’s volunteer work with the Church in Jamaica, and after a brief sojourn home went to Honduras, where she has been the last three plus years as a volunteer and program coordinator at an NGO-type orphanage. She will be pursuing an advanced degree in social work when she returns home next year. Who knew!?
I’m sure your daughter will fulfill dreams for her you never realized you had until she does them and you see they are a perfect fit for who she is. And THAT is one of the great joys of fatherhood.
Wow, Steven! What can I say? I needed this story right now.
This really made me smile. You have paid it forward, buddy, with tremendous results.
She’s amazing. I have a 21-year-old much like her. And yes, they will save the world. This is the one thing in which I have absolute faith.
this was so sweet and brought tears to my eyes.
call. email. skype.
Well, the boyfriend likes to wear skirts, but their is no accounting for women’s taste. As a fellow father of a daughter, just trust me, anything you say will just drive them closer. Women can be extremely intelligent, except about women. And vice versa.
Doh – “there” not “their” and correction:
Women can be extremely intelligent, except about men. And vice versa.
Well done, Dad! Well done!
As I posted elsewhere to ya, she reminds me of my Danni. Same, well not THE same beauty mark – as that would be Mole Sharing.. and weird. π
Mine’s “off” to college. Not off – as she’s rooming here. Two years she’ll transfer down to OSU. Then I will need you to hold my hand as I whimper in my red wine.
xoxoxo!!!!
All I have to say is…
BRADY
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9ufwukWgKfI
Giving new (and well deserved) meaning to the term proud father. Wonderful post, Steven.
Wow, that’s coming from a Dad’s heart. Very nice :)https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.mokoolapps.easterpuzzles
Well, that was awfully delightful. I’m glad your daughter is as delightful as this essay. I’m happy to support your pride, Steven.
Very cool post, Steven.
I’m fortunate to do work that keeps me around college-aged kids – some in college, some in very dire circumstances indeed. And regardless of which – they give me hope, too. Even if their taste in music is often atrocious. π
Maybe she is “the straightest lesbian” in America because her BF wears a dress π
She’s become very proud of her Scottish heritage ever since she started going out with him.
I just left my son in Worcester a few days ago. He is transferring to Clark, as a sophomore. From your description of your daughter, I imagine she’s also attending that school.
Seems like a great place for the kid you describe.
Shoot me a private message if you ever want to share stories about the place.
All of that – AND exceptionally attractive, too!
I hope I live long enough to somehow help her save this sad old tired world.
She may have a boyfriend, but at least he wears a dress.
This is a beautiful and joyous post Steven. Letting go of your child’s hand from their first step to their first day in school and all the remaining ‘firsts’ is always a double-edged sword of bittersweet love and pain for any parent.
I feel like my world just became a bit of better place. Beauty of character passed on to your daughter.
This was such a lovely post. I’ve been thinking about it ever since I read it earlier today, and what a lucky girl she is to have a wonderful father like you.
Sorry about the Patriots fan thing.. π