There seem to be a lot going around the site lately and I am no exception.
I don’t have a purpose for this diary other than to share and let you know how much I’ve appreciated the support and encouragement I’ve received from all of you these last 6+ months (has it really been that long since I hopped over to the frog pond?).
I’ve learned so much from each of you and am so happy you came into my life, even if it has been virtually.
Last night my husband of 11 years and I decided to separate. We will be making our transition in the next couple of months and deciding all the usual, who keeps which dogs (I have 3 and neither one of us can afford to take all of them), which books, the computer, etc. (I’m pretty sure I don’t have to worry about my CIV IV game though although I should probably get that in writing… 😉
It’s been something that has been in the works for years now and neither of us has been strong enough to tell the other we needed more. He’s my best friend and one of the most wonderful people I have ever known so we will continue to share our love with each other for the rest of our lives. It hurts, but it had to happen. Surprisingly we are both on the same page… funny how you find things out when you actually communicate honestly with each other… We will both come out of this better for it. And who knows what life holds ultimately? But it is time to take a chance and let fate decide.
Add to that the fact that I am currently unemployed and the stress is a bit compounded 😉 but I’ll be okay, at least that’s what I keep telling myself…
So bootribbers, it’s been a rough year, politically, personally, and emotionally, but I have the one thing no one can take away from me… Hope for the future. And a belief that I can be the change I seek.
So if I drop in and out of the frog pond as these changes happen (I promise I won’t stay away too long… especially if Fitzmas comes sooner rather than later ;), don’t worry about me, I’ll be back.
And I really have to finish a piece I’m working on one of these days so I’ll probably be stopping by more frequently until I find gainful employment and have to move.
Anyway, it’s been an emotional weekend for me with catnip leaving, Boo sharing his divorce and Susan’s mom and brother, all while I’m going through almost the exact same situation.
I lost both parents a few years ago, my dad was out of my life when I was 13 and I found out he died on the streets of Toronto when I was still living in LA and my mom is mentally ill and I had to remove her from my life around the same time so I could keep going in mine. All that to say, it’s been tough. So if I’ve lost my snark and offended anyone (leezy I’m thinking specifically of you here), I’m really sorry. I didn’t mean to, it’s just been rough.
Ugh, this is way too sappy and serious… and I’m going to stop before I totally ruin my rep 🙂
Namaste
~ spider
